I’m learning

I am learning how unwell humans actually are. How unwell we make the world around us. One could even call us a disease. I am learning about how things I was taught were normal are unnatural. Time, Money, Politics… and a slew of other things deemed normal in the society many of us live in, that are actually not normal.

Time- humans created time. Hours, minutes, seconds, days, months, years, centuries. No other creature on this planet uses this type of time. Entities with no physical body don’t even use this construct.

Money- money and its value. Everything we need to survive and live comfortable is offered by the earth for free. So why do we pay for it instead of trade for it. Everyone on this earth is able to create something, or do something that some one else needs done.  I myself like to learn how to make things people need, like clothing, soap, medicinal herbal remedies, growing food (gardening). My husband does too.

Politics- The wealthy elite controlling aspects of strangers lives they have no business having that deep of a hand in. Everyone is perfectly capable of making moral and ethical decisions for themselves if\when given the chance and all of the truth to them.

I also learned this tip bit today. http://www.africanamerica.org/topic/menstruation-is-not-normal

Only domesticated or captive(enslaved) mammals have periods.

There is much more food for thought. it all comes with patience.


Saturday Rambling

So I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the current state of things in The United States. The current state of all human beings on planet Earth. The easiest thing for me to do is keep myself in my little bubble. I then realize we are all on this planet at the same time, experiencing life together. This togetherness is nothing to be afraid of, it is something to embrace. We are ignoring the horrible things, or at least trying to hide them so we can pretend they aren’t happening and feel like we are alleviating ourselves of responsibility for what we are inflicting on one another. I’m sure anyone who is reading this can think of something happening right now or something they’ve done they wish they could take back or stop.

I know love makes the world go round, but lately it feels like its stopped moving entirely. We are all still here though, which is awesome. That means we still have time to be better.

Of course I’m not without fault, I’ve let my emotions get the better of me one too many times than I’d care to admit. I’ve said, done and felt things I really wish I didn’t. All there is left to do is stop myself and think through whether or not its worth the time and energy delve into those thoughts and emotions at that time. Or even at all.


So the past few days tumblr has been under attack by 4Chan, 8Chan, 9gag, reddit, all because these four groups of people are not human. They prey on the week. They have no regard for human life. They are trying to push people to suicide and get tumblr shut down. They are doing this all for kicks. I know not all of them. I know that because there is a bit of light in every dark corner. These people, if I can even call them that anymore, no longer deserve to be treated as such. They are the sexists, the racists, the rapists, the misogynists, the mysandrists, they are murderers. They are the supremacists, they are everything wrong with societies, and the human race in all of its glory.

I am so furious, and appalled. I do believe if they are face to face with anyone, they wouldn’t be able to take their own shit. I am so prepared to give it to them. I’m just waiting for them to rear their despicable, outright nauseous, heads to me.

So many people are suffering. And for no reason, other than some sick fucks have a fetish. How do people even get this disgusting? There is no way a person could shove their head that far up their ass.

Do these imps know how short their dirty time is now?
I don’t think so.

I been working, I been working…

Okay, not really but I have been trying to get back into the flow of things with Capybara Paranormal. I went on kind of a ‘let the queue do the work while I deal with some emotions that had the audacity to creep up on me’ hiatus. Since that started I started a couple more side projects, like Tobin Peace, and have literally done nothing of substance with them. So I’m standing at my computer, because it’s on a laptop arm attached to, not a desk, and I don’t have any stools tall enough to sit at it comfortably.

So I’m standing here trying to put together a post for my other blog and I keep looking over to see the project I have for this one, and the note to get something done for the other one, and remembering what exactly I wanted to do for this one. Then, realizing I still need to draw characters for my project and learn my animation software. Which puts me back because I am trying to keep both blogs updated in some kind of way, regularly, and I’m not actually getting anything done. Then I see some news stories or life updates from friends and family that upset me gravely, or get me thinking about my life and send me into a tizzy, and I spiral down, crawl into bed for a week and end up on hiatus…

Not to mention life happens, like school and my girlfriend, and realizing how miserable I feel sometimes that I get the life force sucked from my body when I go into a public place. which is what happened the other day. My girlfriend and I went to the mall and everyone and their great aunt sally was there, just standing and existing in that space with all of their body heat and perfume. Ugh.

I honestly don’t remember what this post was supposed to be about. I guess just a life update. So that’s totally what I do on Tobin Peace, update my life (Sad smile I wish). Well it was nice spouting at O’dark thirty. Toodloo until next time. Hopefully I have something more of sustenance for you.