America, guns, violence, Muslim, Christian, terrorism…

Sitting in an arm chair at 38 weeks pregnant watching people be murdered,  watching people care more about a hunk of steel than a human life, watching people kill people for no reason (for there is never a reason) and blame a totally different group of people. Makes me wonder if maybe R.E.M. was right. It is the end of the world as we know it, and I do feel fine. Then again maybe I don’t feel fine, maybe I feel sick. I know everyone else watching the violence and hateful rhetorics unfold, those who lost someone to senseless violence, those who can look at disaster and still see glimmer of light, know that blaming a group of people and not acting to prevent violence does nothing.

Sitting in an arm chair at 38 weeks pregnant with my family around me wondering what,  if anything in particular, makes people think karma and mother nature won’t make the world the way it needs to be… everyone/everything is here until nature says “no longer”. We need not take any matters into our own hands. By our circadian rhythm is how we live in peace.

Sitting in am arm chair at 38 weeks pregnant waiting for this child to want out of me, thinking maybe the world will fix itself. Until that day everyone unclenches their buttcheaks and calms their tatas, well just have to keep fighting with one another and reminding ourselves to live and let live. 

I love depressing media!

Being on social media all day is, as most have already figured out, extremely over stimulating. Not only have I not been able to focus while I’m trying to get things done and ready before my little peanut monkey demon baby gets here. I haven’t been able to focus on my game plan for after he gets here. So I sit in my recliner and scroll through Facebook. Where all there are posts about right now is the election, mud slinging, and good old American hatred.

While a good roast can be amusing, there is a point it can be too much. I think I’ve found that point. There just aren’t enough cute animal videos to combat the hateful rhetoric and tragic events taking place due to the hateful rhetoric.

I feel as though I should live in a cave, have an inbred family that preys on unsuspecting travelers and hundreds of years later have my story turned into a horror movie. One that no one believes could have actually happened because it’s just so horrendous and gruesome… or I could just stay indoors and let the world pretend I don’t exist for a while, so I can focus on my paranormal work, and getting an idea of what I want to do in the future.

Writing would be good right? It’s one of those things where practice makes perfect and I’m going to be up every couple of hours with a newborn. So why not live off of coffee and baby cuddles?

Oh and I live in an old Montana mining town, so I can go for walks, and the cememtary is right across the street where my little family can get headstone rubbings and then do research on the people we find names for.

Now I only need to hunker down and do that, before I end up living in a cave with an inbred family that preys on unsuspecting travelers. Then I’ll work on returning to work.

Yeah!! I’ll practice my writing, maybe even get back into reading… and paranormal/supernatural investigating, possibly inter-dimensional inquisiting. That last one though takes a lot more practice than I might have time for at first. Say good-bye to over stimulation, and now it’s time for a nap.

Willful Ignorance

In this great age of information and how connected everyone is to one another, fact checking has become a must. Why is it that so many intelligent people choose not to? Since we’ve gone from books to radio; to radio and television; to television and the internet pre-fact checking has gone out the window. Not only can one not blindly believe everything they see on the internet, but one cannot trust everything they see on television either. Due to the fact they get a large portion of their stories from the internet just as we who use computers do. I know there are people who only watch Fox News and blindly take everything those orange conservative robots say as the absolute truth. I would say that those who only watch Fox News are saddening but then I remember that their generation is dying out and once they do things will get better. Maybe they’ve forgotten what it was like when they were our age and they wanted change to. When they wanted things to get better, maybe they have forgotten.  If old age really sets you into habits that hard, that resistance is possible, the road ahead is going to be rockier than the majority of us had hoped.

This was going to be an angry rant, but I cannot be so towards the person that inspired this post. They are only doing what they know to be right, whether it helps them or not. I can only hope that the results of the election in November 2016 help them to see that the old way will only repeat history and solidify what the rest of the humans on Planet Earth believe of us (The United States), deeper into stone. Not only would that be a devastating blow to the generations before us who became hardcore conservative creatures of habit, but that will be what causes our extremely messed up country full of prideful asshats to bring the movie ‘Idiocracy’ to fruition. Don’t get me wrong that was a really good movie, but it is only good as fiction. Did you hear me people?

“’Idiocracy’ is only good as fiction”

Okay, now that I’ve got that out I feel a million times better. The point I am trying to make while containing the fury that I don’t have is that no one can believe everything anyone says without fact checking, and if you do I pity you for allowing yourself to be willfully ignorant.

What to do, What to do?

It is 1:30 in the morning and I’ve been awake since 2:00 in the afternoon. I was tired since I over slept, but now I am wide awake and still have no real motivation to do anything productive with my awake time. Where is my motivation? Seriously, where did it go? If I don’t stress my self out trying to get my projects going, and actually make a video or two. I think I would be much better off. The fear of not liking what I am working on, or finishing it and not liking it is getting to me. The daydreaming and anxiety of coming in contact with people has something to do with this as well. Although I do fairly alright when I am thrust into social situations. Afterwards is a totally different story, however.

What am I to do at now 1:40 in the morning? Do I investigate the strange noises outside my door and inquire as to why the solar powered owl on my window sill keeps moving in the dark? Or, alternatively do I sit outside and ponder as to whether or not a bear or bobcat might wander into our yard and maul me? These are the important questions people, the immensely significant questions that one, such as myself, must try my hand  at the devastatingly difficult task of answering. Or, again, alternatively, I could just sit on my bed and type random nonsense into my computer that will get posted to my blogs. The blogs that may someday still never be read, but by a handful of humans scouring the internet for that last bit of nonsense to top off their night before they fall into a deep slumber. I envy those of you who fall into deep slumbers in the dead of night. My body seems to think the dead of night is morning and morning is instant death.

Oh, dear sweet bejeezus, it is 1:51 in the morning and I still have no motivation to do anything productive… #mylife

My hate fire tank is over-filled…

I’ve still got a long way to go in this life I’m living. That doesn’t stop the fueling of my hate fire when I see and hear other beings that inhabit this world. Narcissists want power over those they deem unworthy. Sadists are making excuses, pinning the blame on their victims, for the horrible acts committed by them. Some humans are still having a difficult time grasping  the “Love Thy Neighbor” concept. It is freaking unexplained how I have not spontaneously combusted yet. Common sense and moral guidance are becoming sparse. This planet has been gracious enough not to implode what with all of the tomfoolery taking place on its surface. Why is the news filled with discommodious jackanapes? Asshats with a death wish are running rampant with no supervision until it is too late. I would rather live in peace amongst all the other humans and run the risk of pillaging by extraterrestrial beings than worry about being murdered by one of my own kind. My hate fire could not grow larger, it could not burn hotter, I can almost not contain it.

Damn it, now I’m pissed. Great way to start the day right?

So this morning while I was scrolling through Facebook I saw a post someone had shared of some one ranting about the minimum wage being raised. This person ranting made it about the military, isn’t that nice. So it got me thinking “Why do you have to turn wage arguments around to be about the military?!”

Why don’t we just raise the military personnel’s salaries? They’ve been trying to get that done for years, everyone is in support of it except for the rich white republicans who want starving needy soldiers to fight wars that put more money in republican pockets rather than help the people, like the republicans promised it would.

(‘warlock’: root meaning: before 900; Middle English warloghe, -lach, Old English wǣrloga oathbreaker, devil, equivalent to wǣr covenant + -loga betrayer (derivative of lēogan to lie), ‘Republicans’: I don’t see a difference in definition.)

This person ranting also said that minimum wage jobs were created to teach high school kids about the work force. If they are to teach high school kids about the work for we should rise up and destroy the work force and build a new one, because this one sucks. We are devalued everyday. Even if we have a smile on our face and are completely polite. Most of our rules protect the customer, “the customer is always right” and restrict us “If your are on the clock and a customer says or does something sexually harassing you cannot do anything outside the company about it because you were a part of the company (not your own person) at the time of said incident.”, “The customer is always right, even though they are usually wrong and total wildebeests in their problematic fury. You must remain nice and take all their shit no matter how degrading it is.”


This is her rant, we will call her Jen. I would like to point out that not only does she want minimum wage to stay low, she does not want military personal to have higher wages. Is it me or does she seem a bit classist? Classless?  Why doesn’t she want to fight the government to raise military personnel’s salaries?

No, Jen they aren’t saying they deserve as much as, they are saying they deserve more than they’ve got. Government workers and Military personnel deserve more than they’ve got too, but you seem oddly comfortable leaving those salaries right where they are. Honestly we don’t have minimum skills, we have skills no one is looking for. No one will train us because they want us to have the skills they want to train us in. Most higher wage employers are also looking for people in older age groups.

You obviously do not know of the situations of these minimum wage workers. They could be currently in school ( if you think minimum wage is going to  pay for upfront college expenses you need to recheck your numbers), they could have a learning disability, they could be eligible for loans or scholarships to afford to go to college, they already have a few children and no one is helping them out, this could be a second or third job, they could not be up to par for what the military wants, Oh! and the high school kids no one else is giving a chance because they need experience to get experience, they could be skilled in something that no one is looking for.  Miss lady, not all minimum wage jobs are fast food as well, don’t forget about retail, those people that kiss your ass and tell you those pants look fabulous on you when really you’re fucking hippopotamus, don’t forget about the gas station attendants who already know how cold it is outside, because they were there all night while it was dropping to twenty below zero, don’t forget the waiters/waitresses and bartenders who don’t want to hear about your day or have you hit on them, have you tell them how busy it is, or order something only to change the entire plate. (and if you chose a sit down restaurant you had better not be in a fucking hurry.)

I worked with someone in fast food who literally had a masters, I worked with an armorer, I worked with a bunch of people in college, I worked with high school kids who were so fucking busy with class work and extra curricular they could only work nights on the weekends, I worked with people trying to support their children because everyone else gave up on them. Fast food jobs are also the only ones who will hire if you just got out of jail for something minor (like being in the wrong place at the wrong time), I’ve worked with pregnant women who were just trying to save up enough to pay hospital expenses.

Miss lady, you are so ignorant. Honestly from your rant you’re proud to know how to type. Please educate yourself on the lives of those kissing your ass because you’re a customer. Please join the people fighting to raise the salaries of military personnel, please don’t devalue workers, please work out of your internalized classism, please don’t be part of the problem.

Next, why don’t you make your argument about raising the salaries of those risking their lives so you may have your opinion? As classist as it is. But maybe that’s why? Nobody is fighting to raise their wages. Republicans are voting for their own pay raises that they don’t deserve. Where is your voice then? Do you really even value military personnel? Why aren’t you pissed that the government controls whether or not military personnel get paid in any given month? It should just be automatic, right? Where were you when congress was at a stand still in determining wages for military personnel? If they hadn’t decided anything in the allotted amount of time, my dad wouldn’t have been paid that month and we would have been running on fumes.

I’m more pissed about the CEO’s and all the millionaires in congress who sit around all day with their hand lotion denying military personnel, law enforcement, and educators the wages and benefits they deserve.

I digress, because I just realized my opinion doesn’t matter as much as hers, because I’m not full on white. I just realized Jen doesn’t value my parents service, (they are both veterans by the way as are many of my aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents). The majority of the government doesn’t care about veterans. The VA treats them atrociously, my mother can attest to that. The majority of the government doesn’t care about anyone who doesn’t single handedly fund every nonsense shit storm they write up (war, election, making corporations file taxes as individuals).  Pay attention America, the majority of the government doesn’t care about you unless you sell them your soul and all of your rights as a human being, then blindly follow whatever they say.

This lady is entitled to her opinion, regardless of how classist it is. I am also entitled to my opinion. As are all the other human beings on the damn planet. Opinions are not meant to control a group of people, but rather the individual the opinion comes from.

I still want to punch this lady in the throat though. Not in front of her kid, I need to keep a little decency.


Citation: Warlock definition from